Here was her post
“Yes I am vaccinated.
I don’t see likes so please write to me.I am beautiful inside out, I am loving and kind and my life is full of fun.
I am an true artist , I am a yoga teacher(private classes only) .
I am Financial Worry free. I hope you are in the the same situation.
I don’t need work for money anymore. I own my life.
I have a wonderful grow up daughter who is my best friend.
For me life is joy. The joy will be more than double when you have a right partner with you.”
We texted, then talked by phone, then met at my place in the afternoon for a dance lesson. She is attractive despite her pudgy body, a sparkly personality, and not shy about her body. We had lunch at Tai Chi, then walked and talked in he park for quite a lone time, then when near her place, invited me into her apartment, we sat, laid, and talked on the bed, her only furniture, and did some yoga and stretching which was actually helpful. There were several times that her black panties become exposed and I became turned on.
My thoughts were telling me that if I gain her trust and safety, I will eventually gain intimacy with her. I followed my mind and not my body. We hugged and I left with her shoes for a dance lesson sometime the next day.
I walked home depressed, feeling shy, inadequate, needy, and confused. When I cam e home, I answered all of Puela’s inquiring questions about whether there was an attraction and whether I showed her her room, I believe her fear that she will have to vacate.
I decided to go to OKC to see if Lily was back on and she was. I immediately felt a clarity (whether true or not) that she had no interest in me beyond friendship and that she would end up taking more from me that I was giving her. This has been my pattern that has gone off the deep end – Pia, Rita, Hila, Mimi, Mimi’s family, They take more than they give to me. This has become painful and demoralizing.
So I decided to call Lily, believing that she was cruising OKC, and check in with her whether she was looking for company tonight? It was an absolutely awful question that I knew she, and most women would not be able to handle, but i needed to somehow open the door to all the messaging that my mind was going through during my time with her.
If we are truly to be friends, we will have to discuss the discomforts that occurred on both sides, which lead to the clarity of what are actual turn-ons for one another are.
Only then am I able to assess how much we can give and take from one another without feeling energetically out of balance.
To be continued……
Update- Next day texts….
Good morning Dragon.
Still can’t understand why you ask me if I had company yesterday eve…. I thank my answer should be. Yes. I do have a very good company. Which is me.?
I enjoyed time spend with you yesterday.
You like a good wine. I think I should not drink too much and too quick. So I prefer spend my day be my own beat company today. Will not going to see you today. Let’s meet and do more dance and yoga tomorrow
Wish you a wonderful day my new New York friend. ?❤️
Greetings Ms. Lily! And thank you for your communication. I realize now that you did not hear my question correctly. I did not ask you “if you had company.” That would be a question from a jealous boyfriend or husband. I actually asked you if you WANTED company -Me! I wanted to ask you before I left you but I was not brave enough. I also asked this question for many other reasons which I would love to explain. But only if you are still feel open and trusting with me.